Category: Mental Health

The Jester

Keeping up appearances is what we do whilst on the inside our mood is completely blue We smile and chat as if all is fine the reality is not so benign We are the Jester all happy and content but in our mind we are suffering anguish and torment We all need to learn to…

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I’ve mentioned before that I do, and have suffered with mental health problems in the past. I work for a company that prides itself on promoting the right noises around mental health but the actions it takes in my view are the opposite of this. I’m in pretty good shape mentally at the moment so…

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A Little Slack

I currently have some personal challenges and work related ones going on at the same time. The specifics are not important but it has got me thinking about the past. Twice when I’ve had significant mental health troubles it was a time when personal and work issues were occurring at the same time. I found…

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Calming The Storm

I think like many there are times when I need to find ways to calm the mind when a frantic unremitting storm is raging. I have utilised all manner of distractions to ease the mind as can be evidenced by the random nature of my posts! In the past I have dabbled at cross stitching…

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Lightbulb Moment

I think a lot of us have the same problem. We care deeply, we take on other’s troubles. This thought has come to me as something has come up in my life that isn’t relevant here but it reminded me of a discussion I once had with my therapist. We were having a discussion around…

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Warning Signs

I suffer from OCD of the pesky checking variety. It’s better at the moment but at it’s worst I used to have to plan to leave the house half an hour earlier than I actually did as I got locked into a checking loop. Others, I suspect, may recognise this. During therapy I think I…

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Something About Nothing

I’m having one of those days, sitting at my work computer at home and all is quiet as people are on summer holidays. I’m looking out the window with my feet on the desk (hence the previous poem) thinking about nothing in particular. Maybe I’m trying to reflect or maybe I’m deflecting. This post really…

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I’m not good at eye contact but I do notice people’s eyes. Not sparkly bright eyes but those with a haunted look. I recognise those eyes, I have seen them in the mirror in the past. Eyes never lie, we should always look beyond the smile.

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Mental Health And Other

I’m trying to make this blog a bit like my first, Lost in Nowhere, which was a bit of everything that randomly came to mind. My second blog Perditus was pretty much just poetry and I think I fell out of love with that one so now I’m here. As background I started my first…

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